Opening losses, recovered

Account up 3% today, but that's after being down 4% earlier. Glad to have recovered, but I did too much hot dogging in the open. Positions way too big. That's arrogance! And then, I'm too big, too scared (cowardice? or rationality?). 

What if I could have avoided those losses, or had smaller ones, and then made the gains I made today? I would be up huge!

In addition, other cowardly trading. Not riding out reasonable volatility. 

So, BH for gorgeous gains today, but coulda' shoulda' - I need to stay cool and not hot dog it so much.