While I do believe that GD is involved in my life, in the market, in the world, I can only do my hishtadlut. I can only follow my rules. Hashem decides. If I've abandoned my rules, and all I have left is to try to call for a "favor", that means I'm not protecting my capital, I'm not acting with discipline... I'm gambling. And I'm not a gambler. I'm a Trader.
So yesterday I couldn't get myself to stop NVAX puts (after having dumped my calls, which was the right play). Thankfully, NVAX dropped out this morning enough to get back almost flat on that.
But it's not progress. I need to move my account forward! upward! and with clockwork trading, not with hope and prayers.
Thank you Hashem for intervening to help me. The help I should be asking for, though, is for self control to make wise decisions and help to follow the plan.
